Rambling about Love, Life, and Happiness. LifeStyle.
In the quest to find the love of my
life, I mainly use social media sites, which is probably my down
fall. That being said, why in God's name is it so hard? Well,
first, I'm a big guy, so therefore it's 10 times harder anyway. Is
that really a bad thing? Don't you girls know we love the most, and
will make you laugh the most. It means more to a guy like me than,
say, a guy who won the genetic lottery. We're usually, more
intelligent, more loving, and more commitment.
That being said, I will say that
personally I have had great relationships, after a long search, but
nothing that really stuck or appeared to go anywhere. Regrettably,
most ended because I couldn't handle the person, because it appears I
can't get a normal girl. I will also admit I, kinda, let the love of
my life slip through my fingers. I miss her more than I want to live
even now, but regrettably, again, she's gone. I contacted her a few
months ago and I messed her up she said and she wants nothing to do
with me. I have to say I did, and I should be punished for it, but
than I did beg her for forgiveness. I suppose, you can't forgive
people for certain things in life, I understand that. I will always
wish her atll the happiness in the world, she deserves it more than
anyone I've ever met. I may always love her, until, of course I find
someone to give all my love to. Which isn't looking great, honestly.
I mean, she had me losing weight, fulfilling my dreams, and she just
gave me the greatest love I could ever ask for. I love you Rosetta.
May you find this one day.
Okay, enough with my sob story, I just
wanted to shout that out. All this being said, I believe in love
that, if you're with a girl, all your love should always go to them.
It confuses me when people say, “Oh I'll always love so and so,”
when they're married to so and so. It kinda makes me sick, honestly,
unless the lover has died in a terrible way. That is forever
understandable. Death is the darkest, scariest thing in this word,
thus far. I mean, yes living forever and being uncomfortable would
be worse. As we are not a society that has the ability to live
longer, Death is the darkest thing I can think of. People say, Oh
well I'm going to heaven when I die to live in paradise. Well, even
that scares me, I don't know this God person, do you? You've met him
and he said, “Oh, yea when you die I promise you everything.”
sounds like an empty promise, but I'm open to the idea. I mean, I
wish God, or Gods and Goddess or something would just have a
conversation with me for like five or so minutes. That's all I'm
asking....I'll get back to you on that as they didn't just appear and
tell me.
Love, that's the ultimate gift in life
that we can ever have, even the richest man will tell you that.
Especially love that has nothing to do with your status, or net
worth. If I were a rich person, how could I tell if a girl actually
love me, yes I could have a girl to love, and have fun, but would it
be the same? I think not, but than I suppose there are people who
would. I mean they'd respect you and think you're absolutely
everything they've ever wanted. Kinda how girls are attracted to
teachers, no matter how they look and so on. For the same reason I
was attracted to both my English teachers, plus english teachers are
really interesting people I think.
Anyway, girls today are as bad as men
now. Where girls used to be shy, bashful, etc. Now they're like all
open about everything, I mean they really don't care. I men are just
as bad, but you girls should know the good from the bad, and some of
you do, but still. I mean, if a guy is being mean to you, and you
keep going back to him, you're absolutely mental. You need to let
this guy go, and be on your way. I suppose girls have always been as
bad, there's just so many people populating the earth, that it's hard
to phase through the good and bad of them.
That being said, girls are amazing.
You guys really are, you can literally see through the bad, to see
only the good, and it really just amazes me. I remember courting a
girl, endless love letters, poems, and just showing her how much I
cared; to finally she said yes. She really loved me, nothing about
me could ever change that, and that really showed me why girls can
love a bad man. I wish I could love like that, but than I suppose we
can. Contrary to popular belief, men have very sensitive hearts. I
know I do, I wear my heart on my sleeves, and when I love you I
always will. No matter what, until you tire of me, of course. Than
I may think of you, because every love is something out of this
world. We love like no other things in the universe that we know of
so far, I think we love more than even Gods, we really take it to
another level. Being in love is a treasure, so don't abuse it.
Don't just through it around like it's just something you can do.
Though, I must admit I say I love everyone, but it's a family type of
love. There's so many types of love as well. It's very complicated
subject that needs to be review and revised more I think.
I hope you enjoyed this, not sure if
you learned anything, but if you did that's great. May you find all
the happiness in the world.
Puff.
Love ya.
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